Hey everyone!

Wanted to share with you my new favourite model! Another model added to my list of favourite models hehe.

NINA AGDAL from Elite Model Management

I actually noticed her last year when she did a photoshoot with Victoria’s Secret PINK!

And I thought she was really really pretty when I first saw her photo :) Like commercial model kind of pretty.

But I recently found out that I’ve actually seen her model in so many different places but I never got to know her name…until now of course :/

Have you seen this photo on tumblr?? I’ve seen it so many times but I never knew the model was Nina! She’s looks so cute here hehe..

I would say Nina is more of a commercial model than a high fashion/runway kind of model. I can’t exactly find any high fashion/runway photos of her.

I think her face really suits the commercial part in the modelling industry but it would be a waste if this 5’9ft tall model doesn’t walk on the runway! She’s so tall!!

Anyway, this gorgeous Danish Model mainly models for lingerie and swimwear. I mean look at that body! She has almost the same measurements as Marilyn Monroe!

It was no surprise to find out that she being featured on Sports Illustrated!! And you know like Heidi Klum’s career kickstarted from Sports Illustrated, I’m secretly hoping that one day Nina Agdal will be signed on as the new Victoria Secret’s Angel too.

She’s already started doing shoots with PINK, so there’s hope hehehe.

I hope she’ll be casted for the Victoria’s Secret 2012/2013 fashion show for a start!!

So what do you think of Nina? Love her? :) I’m definitely hoping to see more of her in the future :)

XOXO

Wyin

If my life was really like that crazy rollercoaster I was talking about a few days ago, then today I’m on the peak. I’m not sure if it will plunge again tomorrow but I feel like tomorrow will be good too :)

I hope it stays that way - to have little joys in my life to counter the sad stuff.

I realised I’ve been writing a lot about how depressing my life is and it must be affecting my readers.. sorry… So maybe I’ll just talk about the little joyful things that happened today :)

1) I’m back in school! As much as I’d rather stay at home, but I’m glad I’ve recovered from my fever and I’m back with my friends :) at the end of the day, I know my friends will make me smile :) It was just the work and stress that dampened everyone’s mood. And I got a cute random hug from Sabrina today :) which is double happiness from school.

2) I’m back at CJ!! I love being in CJ so much! I’ve been in CJ so often lately that I’m always thinking about it in school. I couldn’t wait for school to end early today so I could rush off the CJ. There’s something there that makes me feel so carefree :) The seniors have also been teaching me so patiently and helping me to catch up :) I must apologise for being blur today *bows*

3) I received an unexpected message from a very special person today. And if you are reading this, I must really thank you again! Your message was definitely one of the highlights of my day :) really really didn’t expect anyone to care for me like that :) *hugs* so honoured to be able to share the stage with you.

4) Unexpected conversation with a young waitress at Cafe 360…I found out she’s really interested in CJ and she really wants to try to take dance lessons there. It’s so heartening to know that more people are inspired to dance by CJ :) hope to see her dancing one day!:):)

You may think that all these things are rather insignificant. They usually pass by us so quietly that we fail to notice them. But, I learnt that sometimes we should literally count our blessings one by one to see how lucky we really are. So here’s me counting my blessings :)

My best friend told me that a day may not be good but there are definitely good things in a day :) I think today really proved that :)

I’m blessed. I know I am and I’m immensely thankful :) Like I’ll always say - dream big then work hard. Realise how blessed you are. If you find your day or life sucky, just try to count your blessings. Literally, like how I did. You’ll be happy very soon, promise.

And I love you.

XOXO

W

I’m feeling so overwhelmed right now, I’m tearing up as I’m writing this post. 

How did I get so lucky to get so many amazing people in my life? I always say that most people don’t care about other people’s problems and that still holds true. But, what is amazing is to have just a few close friends that will stick by you through thick and thin. 

Those words like “don’t give up”, “cheer up”, “you can do this” and “lets work hard together” means so much to me at this point of time. It makes me feel like I’m not alone in this darkness.

Many people have stuck out their hand and offered to pull me back up. Yet, in these past few days, I feel like I’m refusing to get back up myself. By doing so, I feel like a let down. Things haven’t been easy but I feel all I’ve been doing is to throw tantrums about it. I’ve got to trust that tomorrow will be better. And the day after tomorrow will be even better. Slowly, everything will fall back into place. I will get back up. 

And friends, please don’t be ignorant about the situation of the people around you. There are so many around you who needs that support to pick themselves up. I’m lucky to have friends that will guide me out of the darkness but many others don’t and they need us. Be there for them, and tell them, it will all be better tomorrow. 

Why do bad things keep happening to me…

My life (and thus my blog) is on a crazy rollercoaster right now. The kind of rollercoaster that drops 6 levels at once, includes a few 360 degree loops and doesn’t exactly have a secure seat belt. It sends my world upside down and back again and my emotions are in flux. One day I’ll be so happy and another I’m extremely upset. All my emotions are heightened everytime…

I hate it. I still love having an adrenaline rush and taking risks. But right now in my life, I just really need something stable to hold on to. Be it my friends, my family, my grades but I just can’t find anyone or anything that does not disappoint me. I do have friends who have been encouraging me and these are the people that I’ll never ever forget but they have their own problems too and it’s bad enough that I’m burdening them with mine :(

Its unfortunate to say that I am such a mess. Failing every subject that I was good in and I’m not even learning anything anymore in school. I know I need to do something but everytime I try it let’s me down. 

People tell me that failure is part of success, making mistakes is proof that I’m trying.  Yes for once. Yes for twice but if it keeps happening who can honestly say they will not be wavered by it. I can’t. What’s worst is being in an environment that failure is more or less a taboo. People tell you it’s okay to fail but when they fail, they can’t handle. I mean, just saying, isn’t it extremely hypocritical. Bad things can happen to anyone but just not you right. When you are the person faced with failure and setback (multiple times), then it’s a different story. Everything that seemed easy to let go doesn’t seem easy anymore. 

Nowadays I just hate waking up, I hate living up to everyone’s expectations. I feel like I’m being pushed into a corner everyday. I could either stay there or fight back. Part of me would rather stay there and watch my life pass by; but deep down there’s someone who is holding on, someone who wants me to fight back. I’ve never been one who gives up so easily and that part of me will never let me do that. Right now I’m feeling so suffocated, confused and alone. I don’t want anymore drama in my life, I don’t want to keep breaking down. I’m tired. I’m truly tired. I hate the world that throws me off the edge and causes my feet to run out of ground. For once, I want to be safe as could be so that everything will fall back into place again. 

I’m truly sorry for all the negativity on my blog again. I really hope that one day I’ll stop writing about all these unhappy things. 

Anyway, I shall share something more positive with you guys now. 

I was watching Kimora: Life in the Fab Lane last night and she said something that really touched me: 

She said: 

Everyone breaks down once in a while. Its okay, because i go to work, i take care of my kids in the day and at night when I go into my room, I break down and cry. But life doesn’t end there, life doesn’t stop for anybody. The next day when you feel like hell, you get a phone call from the office saying that they need you here right now, you’ve got to get back up and go to work. Believe it. There are people who need you, you are not alone, life cannot stop for you.So lets work hard and I’ll meet you at the top because that’s where I’m heading. 

WOW. This is basically the essence of here speech and it really touched me. I’m gonna tell myself this everyday. Life doesn’t stop me, so I’ll gotta get back somehow. If any of you out there is reading this and feels the same way, I just want to let you know that you are not alone. I’ll be here. 

XOXO

Wyin 

Someone once told me that if I thought too much about something, It will never turn out the way I wanted it to be.

That someone told me if I just followed my instincts and do it, everything will fall into place. It seems scary but things are actually not that complicated. All it takes is 20s of courage and recklessness and everything will be fine.

I’ve gotta start believing that person. Thank you.

I’ve never supported conformity in theory but I always find myself becoming a victim of it. I guess I’m just not radical enough to go entirely against the norm. I recognise the importance to have some kind of conformity so that we can have order in our society. We can’t possibly have everyone failing everything or becoming barbarians right… But i think we need a little less conformity than what we have today.

Its never easy to be the one that sticks out from the crowd. Sometimes its easier to colour between the lines and make sure you don’t get noticed. I’ve witnessed people who tried to be different but end up getting condemned by our society.

But then I’m scrolling through model blogs and I realise that they all look alike. Even some artistes and performers look alike. Almost like they are one anothers’ dopplegangers.

I’m looking at all the models and I don’t remember their faces anymore. I used to remember most of them but as the market gets more saturated, only the ones who look different stand out. The ones with crooked teeth and chapped lips - not exactly the idea of beautiful in the model world. Soon, the rest will blend with the crowd. They’ll just form the background of those who stand out.

Its not just the models but everyone else… Its been a glaring problem since forever.

So, I think we need a little less conformity than what we have today. It doesn’t have to be some kind of crazy rebellion against society but in our own little way, we have to ask ourselves if thats what we really want? Do you spend your whole life colouring between the lines and living someone elses life? Or do you want to live yours?

What represents you? What do you want to be remembered by? Remember: When you do something that is for you, it means so much more.

XOXO

Wyin

Recently, I’ve been noticing something really cool! (or at least its cool in my opinion..I know people will beg to differ) 

I found out that everyone’s been wearing Neon colours again. I remember Neon was the “in” thing for nails last year and Victoria’s Secrets had Neon as the theme of Club Pink for last year’s Fashion Show. But this time, Neon is back and people are bringing Neon up to a whole new level.

I’ve never been a fan of Neon, if you ask my friends I don’t use Neon colour highlighters, its just too bright but I’m kinda loving the Neon coloured fashion trend nowadays. 

Catch Kendall in her fabulous Neon dress! I think she rocked it simple and sweet. The dress itself makes such a huge fashion statement :)

Cool neon shoes that I secretly feel like getting :/

Obssessed with this neon pink skirt!! Really really pretty and cute!

Thats all for now! Don’t wanna be spamming pictures :) 

Do send me pictures of your neon outfits if you have! I wanna see them :) 

XOXO

Wyin

It was Cindy’s 21st Birthday Bash 2 days ago!! (Here’s a photo of the birthday girl blowing her princess birthday cake!) The place was so beautifully decorated and everyone looked so glamourous!! It was the best friday night i’ve had in ages. Happy 21st birthday Cindy!!!^_^ Thank you for inviting me to be at your fabulous birthday bash! 

Took a lot photos again, here they are! :D

Don’t you think Charmaine looks so gorgeous? Love this girl <3333

My gorgeous girls <3

Our only photo together of the night! ( P.S. THE DRINK IS NOT MINE HAHAHA) I love you guys!! <3

With pretty May yee. 

Huixin~

A photo with the star of the night! :) (Sorry its so blur :( )

Alicia <3

Got a hug with my idol Evy! Funniest person I’ve ever known

This is the 幸福 photo I was talking about

Pretty Huixin with the flowers

We love the flowers!

Ain’t no party like Cindy’s

Heather as Sherlock hehe

Alton!

Alton doing paparazzi!

Chloe, Alicia, Lan, Charmaine, Me, and Heather 

This is why she’s so funny!!

Ze Photobombers of the night

Last photo with fabulous Carmen :)

AINT NO PARTY LIKE CINDY’S 21ST BIRTHDAY PARTY RIGHT? Hehe I’m lucky to be able to celebrated the birthdays of 2 my good friends within a week :) And both are the most important birthdays of their lives! Sandy’s Sixteenth and Cindy’s 21st!!! 

Had a great week~ Hope you guys did too :) 

Till the next birthday… 

XOXO

Wyin

I’m gonna be attending my friend’s 21st birthday party later today! :) I’m really excited because:

1) This is my first 21st birthday bash

2) Its gonna be held at a musuem which is the coolest venue I’ve ever been to in a birthday party 

3) Its an awesome theme party where we get to dress up!!!

XOXO

Wyin

Aloha!

I attended Sandy’s sweet sixteen party 2 days ago at MBS! Happy sweet 16th birthday super sexy sandy!! Thank you Sandy for inviting me :) Here are some pictures that I took that day:

With Kelly, Chloe and Charmaine

Charmaine’s cute face!^_^

Heather and Erena

Me and Lan <3

Pretty kelly :)

Lan’s unglam shot.. This was too hilarious I had to put it in

Pretty vivian

Team Charmaine and Wyin!! <3 Love love love~

Camwhore in the toilet hehehe… Lan and I are in the colours of the US/British Flag!! Happy~ Red and blue are my favourite colours

Candid shot of Heather laughing, she’s so cute!

The 2 pretty sisters :)

Best waffles in the world! I had 4 servings that day. Here’s my waffles with honey syrup and marshmallows

Pretty lan! Love her shoes <3

Chloeeee looks like Alice in Wonderland (Manga Version)

Beautiful Guin and Vivian :)

Happy Kelly cos she got her curry and mantou!

Chairul trying to strike a retro pose…FAIL.

Chairul’s signature face

Finally here’s our sexy birthday girl!!! and her pretty cake~

Erena, Kelly, Charmaine and I posing with the flowers from Sandy’s cake!

With the birthday girl!

Lastly, love from 3 of us!

XOXO

Wyin

I hate writing about how my life sucks. I know no one wants to hear about my depressing life that only serves to make their life worse. So I shall tell you something more positive now! I AM NOT GONNA GIVE UP! EVERYTHING SUCKS NOW BUT IT WON’T SUCK FOREVER! I’m gonna bring my life back from Suck to Non Suck! Goodnight my comrades!

XOXO

Wyin

Life hurts like roses that often prick the unsuspecting people. We all go through a daily emotional rollercoaster and we can never be truly happy because we know that at any point of time, we might plunge again. We get hurt by others or by our actions so many times, we stop healing. We merely stick bandaids over our wounds and hope, that it might possibly go away if we can’t see them. 

People also don’t understand us because they never go through the same thing as we did and you pray that they never will because you know exactly how much it hurts right now. But there are also times, you wish that someone can feel for you, you need that listening ear that will tell you “I get that because I’m going through/been through that before and I’m going to lead you out of this. Trust me.” Most of the times, you don’t get that because either people don’t get you or they just don’t care. You can’t blame them too because honestly, you wouldn’t do the same to another person.

Tomorrow you’ll look at this post and forget how it feels now. Look at it 6 months from now and you’ll laugh at this moment for feeling “stressed” and “depressed” because you’re much more depressed now. You wonder how you survived then. You wonder now, if you will ever survive. 

I honestly have no idea what I am ranting about and I’m pretty sure I’m going to delete this in a month’s time because it’s so stupid. This is just how I feel right now. If you don’t get it, its normal because I don’t too. I only know that I long for someone who understands me, not for people’s sympathy and encouragement but I just need to know that I am not alone.

Till that person comes, I have my music - the only thing in the world that will never fail me. 

Xoxo

Wyin

Hi guys!

Here’s a special post on my look as Jane the Volturi. I know I’m far from looking exactly like her but I hope it was still scary enough… muahahaha

Xoxo

Wyin